Humans don't amaze me anymore...
It doesn't mean that I have no good humans left in my life. I've seen the best and worst humans in my journey, and the best and worst of the humans who are still there may be there forever. And there were days when I felt that all I wanted was a group around me; there were days when I felt that I should run away to a faraway land where no humans exist. This might seem like I've lost interest in people, but I definitely have not. Just that I've realized how things work. I’ve wondered how the same person could react in two different ways to the same situation, one being kinder and the other being the opposite. Often, that’s pretended to be a situational demand. Do these mean I’m a supernatural being who lives beyond these realities? No, I don’t think so because I’m one of them too, and that’s why I said humans don’t amaze me anymore.
I’ve been betrayed, cheated, and ill-treated at the same time I’ve been pampered, loved, and cared for. I’ve seen both coming from the same people too. The one who realizes and really takes steps to sort it out stays, and others simply leave; it's good for them and for me too. Have I not hurt anyone? Yes, many times, both knowingly and unknowingly; hence, humans don’t amaze me anymore.
I’m reminded of a scenario that happened between Jesus and his disciples. Let me briefly describe it. It goes this way: One day Jesus was worrying, realizing that people come to him only for miracles, and they don’t seek him unless. On that very day, people came to him to receive a miracle, and they just left. A heartbroken Christ turns to his disciples and asks them, Will you also leave me? So, then Peter, his fervent and enthusiastic disciple, replied, "Where would we go, Lord?" leaving you, for you have the words of eternal life. I believe that would have been the answer of his other disciples too. But things flipped; Jesus was betrayed by one of his disciples, Judas, for just 30 pieces of silver. And the enthusiastic Peter betrayed him three times, saying I did not know him. Almost all his disciples left him during the crucifixion out of fear, except for one. None continued the good work after Christ. Until the moment when the resurrected Christ appeared in front of them and encouraged them to continue to do good deeds after him. They all (except Judas, who hung himself upside down to death) did so after a couple of encouragements from the resurrected Christ.
I’m perplexed: How can people betray someone like Christ after witnessing all that he has done? Shouldn’t they continue the ministry of Christ without hesitation? Well, I’ve been like them too, so humans don’t amaze me anymore.
Without a potter's hand, clay can't be molded into a pot; in the same way, without the creator’s hand, no human can be kind or lovely; all the kindness and love that I’ve received and will receive from people is and will be because of him only. Because, as I said, I’ve seen the best and worst in the same people, the people who hurt me the most were actually my loved ones, who are still and will always be there. The ones that I have hurt the most are also them. They often blamed the situation, and I too did the same. Hence, humans don’t amaze me anymore.
